I never thought to ask why you never touched a toe
off the sand, never shimmied your soles on the slick of tiles
by the pool. Not in any back pocket of your history, did a boat
lurk. Dad, in the water, kept an eye while we wriggled
and arched for you like dolphins for boaters, any splash scooting
you back, your fingers tightening the hatstrings
under your chin. Forty years later, baking
in the sun, I told you of the swim teacher behind me––frozen
at the brink of the diving board––who shoved me off, slap
of the water lacing my thighs for weeks, blue closing over my head
in my dreams. I don’t remember, you said, unravelling
your own story, French-braided three quarters of a century.
***
On holiday at the beach, your father held you by the hand, waves sucking
at your ankles, when a commotion by the umbrellas bade him pull you back up
to the throng of people ringing the towels, the only sound the keening
of the gulls. No one stopped you from pushing through the circle to see a child
lying on a towel, her ruffled lavender swimsuit dripping, her ringlets
the color of apricots, her green eyes like sea glass until a kneeling woman
closed them. Others reached for the nearest thing to wrap around the girl
and lifted her, doll legs dangling, and so it was in your summer coat
they carried her away.