I am not certain what else could matter more
when I am split open,
spilled forth,
splayed out,
my flesh growing cold,
a kind of self-inflicted frostbite
which is more precious than the limbs —
the broad arms, the sturdy legs and aching feet,
the bowed back which strains under a mighty load,
the wind-roughened cheeks and the distant gaze,
the softer smiles and the straining lungs,
the individual fingers and toes,
each its own master while inextricably twined,
and the stout, ever-bruised core,
the overfull and hollowed out heart —
freezing over, one by one,
shutting them down and carving them off
like there will always be more,
like I will find a new set of ribs in the bargain bin
and start over at a discounted rate,
my great noseless face a monument
to greed and grasping and arrant grift,
rusted out and cracked down the middle,
my body a wretched sepulcher to what matters most,
an answer unvoiced, spurned but self-evident,
self-defeating,
while I am split open,
spilled forth,
splayed out,
at my own bloodied hands.