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You Tell Me at Last About Your Father, Another Year Dead by T. Dallas Taylor

It’s selfish to wish myself in your nightmare

but I do—as your shoulder, your cheek;

the hospital wall that you slammed

your fists against & screamed

into the sky. It’s selfish to wish

those years of yours mine, so why

 

not add to the list: playmate, play-

thing, first kiss, because when your lips

take me back years I can’t stop

watching them tremble, when your eyes

look up to the clouds I can’t

 

see anything but your thin tears,

because when your fingers toy

with stalks of grass it takes

all the air I can stuff in my lungs

not to burst out, cry, press

your body into the earth beneath

 

the weight of mine, & years.

Beneath a barren tree, on a rock

overlooking the sea, you pick flowers.

Strip leaves, then stems, all you can spare

until they float. The grave is too far out

 

& behind. With a breath, you send

coral petals on wind, then water.

Flower girl, dream girl, earth girl

of wood & stone & saltwater, take me

back to the brink of death, home

& introduce me to him as yours

 

the way they do in the movies,

your hair slicked back & in mine

a flower you’ve picked & stripped.

Hold my hand, your breath. Eyes open.

I’ll break the moment you break.

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T. Dallas Saylor (he/they) is a PhD candidate at Florida State University and holds an MFA from the University of Houston. His work meditates on the body, especially gender and sexuality, against physical, spiritual, and digital landscapes. He currently lives in Denver, CO. He is on Twitter.