Because I can't sleep again I walk
the neighborhood. The stars surround
my little house. Before birds or determined
cars heading straight to the gym I walk
concrete earthquaked by crape myrtle
roots. I try to look up. My therapist told me
on our first day that disordered thoughts
are lies. I aim to ask myself when I think
my life will never improve: is this
really true? Potential energy tells us
when you draw the bowstring, it will snap,
but grief is cumulative: what boils
on the surface heats from coals below,
the letter comes the day the power shuts
off, the week the medication changes
sleep retreats, the moon a vengeful ghost.